Love hurts... more than i can stand

Have you ever loved someone who you would go through hell for?
Have you ever loved someone so much that it physically hurts when you're not around them?
I can't breathe when he's not around and i feel so empty and alone when he's not here.
It's rather stupid really, for someone like me; a loner with rough edges and a stony glare, to be so "head-over-heels" for someone. It's so out of character and so utterly... unthinkable for me to be in this situation. but i am. I have to find a way out. I cannot live like this for much longer... being so reliant on someone for happiness is no way to live. I can't do it. I have to be independent. Alone. I'm not saying everyone has to be like me. I'm just saying that i, personally, can't stand to be so completely and utterly in love. Maybe one day, when i am more mature and ready, but only until then and not before.

3 guesses who this is about

You look at me and i smile
You hug me and i never want to let go.
You talk to me, and it makes life worth while
You hold my hand and i no longer feel low.

From my other blog:

I've just found this old notebook i used to write in when i was a kid... I was a strange child. There's this one poem, it's kinda weird. I must have been about six when i wrote this.
"People lighting fireworks
whilst creeping badgers lurk
always light a firework at arms length
never sparkle a sparkler with too much strength."
Like i said... Weird.

Depressed thoughts

Sitting here alone, in this empty space.
By your side, is no longer my place.
Sometimes i wonder, if it was all a lie.
Would you care, if i withered and died?