Scars make me

White lines cover the veins,
Since they found out things were never the same
This scar's for my father,
This scar's from when i broke their hearts,
This scar put me in the hospital,
This scar ended it all.
Scars make me, they hold the memories,
Things i wanna forget,
I'm not sure i wanna live.

My fourth attempt to write something worthwhile

I'm so confused, i don't know what to do.
He sees a face but it's not the image i see inside.
I see storms and clouds on such a sunny day.
Is this right? Am i just losing this fight?
(You can tell i still have writers block!)

smile

I've met someone new and oh my God! I'm so happy. He makes me smile, laugh and feel warm inside. I fell asleep in his arms and for once i wanted to wake up because i don't have to sleep to dream now... I'm living one. everything's great. I can't believe i'm here. Happy. Not alone. Smiling. sure the whole thing's mad me doubt some decidsions but it's worth it. He's worth it.

Move on

I miss him. Loads. But i won't let it show. I need to move on, be happy. Because he's not coming back. He's 169 miles away and there's nothing i can do about it.

Dedicated

The post below was dedicated to Him. But now i feel something much stronger for someone else and it hurts because my heart was broken after giving him everything i had to give. D:

Love hurts... more than i can stand

Have you ever loved someone who you would go through hell for?
Have you ever loved someone so much that it physically hurts when you're not around them?
I can't breathe when he's not around and i feel so empty and alone when he's not here.
It's rather stupid really, for someone like me; a loner with rough edges and a stony glare, to be so "head-over-heels" for someone. It's so out of character and so utterly... unthinkable for me to be in this situation. but i am. I have to find a way out. I cannot live like this for much longer... being so reliant on someone for happiness is no way to live. I can't do it. I have to be independent. Alone. I'm not saying everyone has to be like me. I'm just saying that i, personally, can't stand to be so completely and utterly in love. Maybe one day, when i am more mature and ready, but only until then and not before.

3 guesses who this is about

You look at me and i smile
You hug me and i never want to let go.
You talk to me, and it makes life worth while
You hold my hand and i no longer feel low.